November 8, 2021
Mia The Diva
Here l am getting back on track. The art of allowing. I’m in a space of life where l don’t have to get it all right. I’ve lived enough life to know what l like and what l don’t for the most part.
I know that l don’t like feeling tired and tapped out. I don’t like feeling drained. I don’t like feeling stressed, even though it’s healthy sometimes and a part of life. I do like how l feel after eating right and clean. I do like when l am actually on time for things. It reduces my stress and l am able to be fully present.
The sacrifice to eating clean is the prepping. It takes time and l am working on ways to perfect it to balance it in my life. If I don’t plan I go straight to what’s most convenient or miss a meal. Not a good look for a diva! lt’s all a work in progress but I take things day by day.
I’ve been chronicling my journey and got off track these past couple of weeks after losing my Uncle to cancer. I would think by now l would have this grief thing down but with every death a piece of me dies too. Every death is painful no matter how much you prepare for it. You’re never prepared when it actually happens.
My Uncle was a second Dad to me. He was the version of my Dad who broke all the rules. He lived in his truth and unapologetically.
Everything is eventual. This one hurts so bad.
I’m staying on the course and not allow grief to get me off the course. I’m in a space of life that l understand death is a reality of life as it is necessary and natural but it doesn’t take away the hurt.
I’m learning to process death while still keeping my priorities in tact by having goals but more so than that making a commitment to them because without making a commitment it just adds to the list of failures.
Set realistic goals and expectations. It’s okay—and healthy—to realize you cannot be 100% successful at everything all at once. Be mindful of the things you can control and work on accepting the things that you can’t control.
Be Healthy Be Fabulous Be You
Mia The Diva